Christmas!!

Okay! Yesterday was Christmas. It was so fun! Well the first part! We were up at like 6:00 :) we opened presents. And finished at 7:00. I got a camera!! It's a Nikon Coolpix L26. It's amazing. And I also got a Never Shout Never CD. I picked it out, and a Linkin Park tshirt from Hot Topic. And an iPod touch. I'm using it right now!! I made a kik! Bandgeekgirl21. Talk to me? :) and I made an Instagram. Bandgeekgirl21... Follow me! okay. Then my dad got sick so we never got to go to my grandmother's houses... So I'm gonna get more presents when we see them next!! And last night I was talking to my boyfriend. He's really nice and really sweet and really funny. I really like him... <3
LLYD <3

My Rant of the day

Okay. So me, being a lazy person who doesn't do homework, I have alot of time to think about stuff. This is my Well-deserved rant of the day. Today during second period I was thinking about Music(Wow. Just Wow.) And it annoys me how dumb ass Choir kids say "Oh my god! I love music! #MusicIsMyLife." Like NO! Hellllll No! I just want to say to them "Can you fucking read sheet music? What's this note! You don't know. Wow, some life you have there" Like, just no! Singing isn't music!! MAKING MUSIC is music. And then they try to complain about having Choir practice during the last period on a school day. Shut the hell up. Band has to come in Monday/Tuesday for Jazz, and Wednesday for Wind. That's Mornings!! So shut the fuck up about going to a CLASS YOU SIGN UP FOR DURING SCHOOL. If you don't like it, QUIT THEN!!! And I really go off about it when they think they have the right to criticize band. Getting hit with a trumpet mouth piece doesn't feel good!!! Reeds can cut you if you try hard enough!!! Band has more talent and brains than all the choirs in my school combined!! Choir is full of dumb fucking blonde bimbo sluts. BAND is full of cute guys and girls, and fucking SMART KIDS! That's right, our low brass section is like ALL advanced classes kids!! So shut the hell up, thanks. This is all I was saying the whole day. Some of my friends might not be my friends tomorrow considering a couple of them are in choir. But it's worth it!!!!

LLYD <3

They basically Saved My life

Damon Fizzy. Shane Dawson. They're on youtube. They are amazing. They make me forget how shitty my life is. I want to fucking kill myself sometimes. But then I watch one of their videos. And I feel better. They mean so much to me. I owe them more than I could ever pay back!! The other day in school, I heard kids talking shit about them. Like No! You don't talk shit about people like Damon and Shane. I was ready to go over and tell them to shut the hell up. But I didn't. So just for the record, NEVER, EVER talk shit about Damon or Shane! Just don't. They're way too important and special to people to do that. They are the reason I'm alive! <3

LLYD <3

Second chance?!

He asked my friend out. She said yes. He cheated with another girl NOBODY likes. Asked her out a couple months later. She said no. He asked me out. I said yes. Dumped me 2 days later. Asked my friend out. She said no. He asked me out again! I said yes. IT WAS A SECOND CHANCE!!! But it had to secret. My mom found out I dated him before, she flipped out. And they still don't trust me. After a week of secret dating, I really liked him. We were supposed to hang out tonight. You know, "HANG OUT"! But he texted me after school, and said "I don't wanna be mean, but I lost feelings for you"! Asshole. He said he was breaking up with me. I said I had a feeling he was going to yesterday... He said he was sorry. I said "it's okay, I'm used to it from u". He said he already had A NEW girlfriend!! He was with her the other night!!! He was dating her BEFORE he broke up with me!!! Ugghhhhhhh. I believed in him. A second chance. You don't just GET second chances from me... I gotta believe in you a whole fucking lot to give you a second chance...!!!! Asshole. And then I was going to go with my sisters to a Haunted House at the baseball field out back. But that's where I was supposed to "Hang out" with Austin. And he's probably "Hanging out" with Savannah!!! I. HATE. HIM. AND. HER. Ugghhhhhhhh!!!!! His new name in my phone is "FUCKING ASSHOLE". Life sucks. It's a weekend. Stuck at home. Bored as hell!!! Listening to music on youtube. Boys like Girls <3333 Blahh... LLYD :(

Blah...!

I'm home sick. And it sucks!! The only thing I can do is pace around the house, watch tv, go on the computer, and sleep!! And I can't text any of my friends because they are all in school. My birthday is tomorrow!!!! My friend Tessa's birthday is today! And I'm not even there to tell her Happy Birthday!!! Ugghhhh..... I'm soooo bored!!!! And hingry... But I can't eat alot, because my stomach hurts and I'm sick!!! :( LLYD! Byee!!

Ugh. Just. Ugh.

So my friend invited me to her boyfriend's house the other night for a little party thing. And her bf has a brother. A little older. He's 17. He's really sweet and cute and nice and really funny! And I really really like him. When we got there, we were only really talking to each other, so he kept trying to talk to us and stuff. It was sweet. And him and I were on a team together when we were playing man hunt. It was JUST him and me :) It was really fun. And he always had really good hiding spots... well, because it was his house so he knew that land. But whatever. And he let me keep his jacket when I left too. It's a really soft jacket. It's definitely my fave. And I didn't want to take it off :) And so after my friend dropped me off at home at the end of the night, she texted me and said she was talking to him on facebook. I went and friended him on facebook :) But he asked her if she would ever date him... And so he asked her for her number. And she told him I liked him!! Secret keeper? Hell no!! And he said I wasn't his fcking type!! What the hell does that mean?! And he said he liked someone else. After she told me that, I knew it was gonna be her. I just didn't want to be right. And the one time I didn't want to be right, of course, I was!!! And I couldn't text her back right away. I HAD to talk to someone else. I had to many feelings. I was Mad. Upset. Angry. NeedToPunchAHoleInMyWall-ey. I talked to someone about it, and then I texted her back about a half an hour later. And then I found out, She likes him too!!! Today, she realized something was fcking wrong. So, she asked me if I was mad at her. No, I FCKING LOVE YOU. YOU TOLD MY SECRET, AND NOW YOU LIKE THE GUY I REALLY LIKE. Ugh!!!! And so she said she would back off of him and he would just have to get over her. And that I COULD HAVE HIM!! But now, she's fcking watching a movie in her living room, with her boyfriend and his brother who likes her!!!! Like WTF!!! She is such a bitch sometimes!!!! Ugh! And her boyfriend doesn't know about his brother liking his girlfriend... I wonder how he would react if he found out... Hmm... I just wanna tell him soo fcking bad. Maybe then he'll break up with her!!! Haha. Yess...

Lessons Being Learned: Guys suck; Friends are bitches; The only guy a girl can depend on is her best guy friend who is like her brother; Life sucks

Well, Live like you're dying.... (Ugh. I wish I was dying!!) People fcking suck. Bye

A HOTEL?!

Ugh! I'm in a hotel right now. 20 Mintutes away from home!! Our house flooded and they are fixing it. We have the hotel room reserved for 14 days. School starts in 11!! Uggghhhhh!!! I hate it here already. I've only been here 2 days. Ugh! I just want to be home! I would rather live with Maggie for a week than be at this hotel. Okay. On a different note, Do you know who the Janoskians are? They are on youtube. They live in Australia. They are amazing. They have twitters. I keep asking them to follow me. And I keep replying to there tweets. But I'm just a regular girl. Things like that don't happen to me. So I know I should stop trying... I wish something like that would happen to me :) Okay. Well, this hotel sucks. The Janoskians are awesome. I have to go and eat breakfast. I hope that won't suck too! LLYD <3